Life can take a huge 360 degree turn when u least expect it.We move on,our paths cross,we meet,we interact,a likeness..an admiration grows,but does that always lasts forever? We move out of a failed relationship with soreness,bitterness,with a broken heart, hoping to find that perfect someone all over again and instead plunging into the wrong ones and at the wrong times! But sometime we come across that single person when we least expect it,when we dont see any connection going on for the same..
Meeting someone at a time when all your emotions had gone wry.Falling for someone blindly,that too in vain..when deep down you know there's nothing in store for that likeness!it was probably wot we call as an infatuation,living in a surreal world where everything seems to be so bollywood'ish',so romantic,everything perfect.But thats far cry from reality where u need to make lots of compromises....compromising with your emotions,calling it as love!
Sometimes i find it difficult to like someone mentally and to get engaged with the same person physically,it seemed obnoxious though..for me a mental connection involves a lot of emotional bonding which i found to be absent while dealing with the physical aspect of it...Its weird actually,to be in bed kissing someone and thinking of someone else at the same time,to feel someone within ur body while feeling someone else at the same time!! I did that,many times and the mere thought of it makes me go insane,when i was unable to handle it after a point.
'Sex involves a lot of emotional bonding between two individuals'..for me it was hard to follow the same,i had never been emotionally involved with someone i had enjoyed being physically with...SEX has always been an 'act' which is fun,which is satisfying,which is fulfilling till it lasts..i never had to cuddle someone just after the act.For me cuddling someone,or waking up the next morning,content,smiling,carries and emotional baggage,again a case of mental connection.
to be continued...