Life's a series of bittersweet memoirs,hope we could make a collage out of it and store it somewhere,like a series of albums. Sometimes i regret not maintaining a diary of my own,a diary where i could ve stored someone,where i could ve stored those wonderful times,days,nights,events...Events that can change our life within a fraction of a second. Meeting someone unexpectedly when u have given up all hopes on finding that 'someone' special..
A chance encounter on a dating site,finding someone different from the rest of the crowd,a simple text.. 'Hi babes' ;) bringing that effervescent smile on my face....texting,chatting online night after nights seemed so splendid.Meeting for the first time...that day..at umm...lets say,a party..was supposed to go spend sometime at his place,well not just 'sometime',the entire night actually...missed it..it was quite late at night and i was hell tired! Met him the very next day..we bonded over a couple of drinks,some food..was supposed to watch a movie..the dvd remained intact,untouched,coz we just talked and talked,from films to men to drinks to affairs to.....endless talks..standing their in your balcony,i wished we could stop our talks and you could kiss me! and you did..finally..the first move..lips in sync,tongues rolling,hands on your face,ur shoulder,ur back....the passion play! we made love..that was'nt a mistake though! little bit nervous,little bit cautious...'why be cautious?' i wondered,'we are safe in each other's arms!'...holding you in my arms,lying on your chest,our naked bodies entwined,feeling your skin,your breath,feeling every single hair on your body..we slept! Looking at your face early morning felt so blissful! stroking your face with my hands,silently,not to wake u up..ur eyelids closed,humming softly into ur ears.....but..i could'nt say it,i just could'nt say those three words which i so desperately wanted to say to you since the previous night...it'd had sounded too early,too soon,too fast...
And...i fell in love..all over again...thinking of you every day and night,waiting for a single call or a text from you made me go insane,i thought you were avoiding me..maybe you did,maybe you did'nt..i did'nt knew for sure,coz u had said u wanted to let go things smoothly,with due course of time..well..i had all my time for u,but......
.....u had to go! u had to leave and go to a far away land,away from me,to a new life,new people,new beginning! and i knew all of it,u had told me...and thats wot held me from running back towards you,from hugging u tight and not letting u go..coz i wanted you to go,to ve a new life,a better life...a life full of oppurtunities,full of love,full of dreams and aspirations! and hence,u thought i was avoiding you...maybe i did,intentionally...to break myself free from the aura that is 'you',i couldnt let myself go weak in front of,so i didnt even met you before you departed...
but u ve and u will,always remain special to me all throughout my life...u taught me a new meaning to love,helped me overcome my insecurities..i can never forget you..Thank you,for being a part of my life,even though it was just for a couple of few days..those few days were SPECIAL...just like YOU ;)
