A Passion play...!!

You...awakening the siren in me...You,who live and breathe to quench

your sensual thirst.

You...with your words of passion ignite in me... a flame

likened after St.Elmo's Fire....never to be extinguished.

You stroking..

the flames of that forbidden ‘immoral’ fire within me ....nightly

My soul...

now simmers in this cauldron of passion, a 98 degrees, as I envision you biting...

and me scratching ...

my nails down that long chocolate torso of yours.

As I expand the space inside my soul to receive you.

Now my vision doubles as I get a mental glimpse of the fever

in your lips...causing physical reactions in me

causing me to take small sips,so that I may readily

embrace your unbridled fire....and match your pace.

Allowing you refuge inside my sanctuary as you melt all the

Forbidden doors inside me, marking my body with your Essence

Ravaging me...like a soul stirring beast

mixing pleasure and pain simultaneously

as we become...an unstoppable force of nature..!

You receive...

those places in me that make me desire you with

everything in me...

I give myself to you..to drink deeply..of me

Till you are drunk off of the nectar

To you....I gladly give

All that I am..!!

Something more than 'Just Love'..!!

And our never ending craziness for movies and books prevails..;) spending hours discussing on films,every detail..every scene..difference in opinion..arguing..and you torture me more when i finally give up and sulk! we have shared everything in all these years, our lives,moments,our happiness..disappointments..great/rough times,moments when i have disappointed you terribly..but you have stayed through..with me..all these years..

You remember how often we discuss about the best cinematic moments of love making ? (A walk in the clouds, Sweet september, La Dolce Vita, Casablanca,The namesake, Kannathil muttamittal, Maurice, The french Lieutenant's woman etc..to name a few), and we had these long discussions on how we would like to interpret those in our own 'respective lives'.Little did i knew then,those moments that i discussed with you.. my best friend,would turn out to be one of 'our' best moments..together,with each other!

I still cant' recall anything about last night,wined and dined with Oprah to give us company ;) don't know who indulged whom or who initiated the process,maybe that didn't matter at all..coz you were there..our closeness, your hands on my face..the warmth of your breath, and the kiss! 

I remember waking up..

to the sound of the rain drops splashing against the window panes!

We woke up to a blissful rainy day..and i love it!!..just the way i loved it when you whispered in my ear and the words you said (utmost silly words though and more than that the stupid song that you started humming! ;D )..snuggling with you under the blanket..curling up in those arms..and while you were lying over me,i knew there's no way i can get off the bed,so i let myself enjoy the warmth of your chest beneath my cheeks..and our passion that has left us weak!!..
Still wrapped up against each other, you took out Shakespeare and started reading out few sonnets, and so i thought..let me rephrase a sonnet..in my own way.. ;)

Those LIPS that LOVE'S own hand did make

Breathed forth the sound that said "I hate"

that languished for my sake;

But when i saw his woeful state,

Straight in my heart did mercy come,

Chiding that TONGUE that ever sweet,

Was used in giving gentle doom,

And taught it thus anew to GREET..!!

My Obsession with Ray (part 1)

I can't recall since when my obsession with Ray's films had started..but it was much later,because my initial fixation for bengali art house cinema had started with Rituparno Ghosh and Aparna Sen's movies,i was, and m still biased towards Ghosh's cinema,though i had certain reservations with some of Sen's films ( Sati for instance!)..I think the first Ray movie that i saw was Jai baba Felunath,which was being aired at one of the movie channels,liked it ,but then m not much inclined towards feluda stories! It was years later when i saw Pather Panchali and watched it twice in succession.The film moved me so much that for few days the images of Indir thakuron, Sarbojaya, Apu and Durga kept coming back again and again.Each and every scene evolved like a beautiful canvas on screen with the nature in its full glory,well..won't go into much detail about the film,a lot have been said for so many decades..in short, i loved it immensely,then i went onto watch the other two parts of the trilogy Aparajito and Apur Sansar. True to all the reviews that i had heard before, the trilogy really opened up the prospects for a whole new generation of Indian film makers to the international arena..The trilogy had so much of an effect on me that immedietly i brought the dvd's of Charulata, Devi, Jalsaghar, Teen Kanya,Mahanagar, Kanchenjunga, Abhijan, Nayak and Kapurush O Mahapurush, spending almost all my pocket money! Days after days i was hooked up with each and every film,though i must admit that Jalsaghar, Kapurush o mahapurush and Hirak Rajar Deshe were films which i felt was worth of just a one time watch,while films like Chidiyakhana, Ganashatru and Shakha Proshakha were nowhere near to Ray's other masterpieces, but films like Mahanagar, Devi, Aranyer Din ratri, Nayak and most importantly Charulata had an overwhelming effect on me,had watched them couple of times! In between i had seen one of the Calcutta Trilogy film, Pratidwandi..i admit,i didn't like it then,because that was a time when i was drooling over the aura of the Apu tirlogy and Charulata overshadowing my sensibilities on films being based upon the socio political scenario of the state, much later when i had read John W Hood's book 'Beyond the world of Apu' and had watched all three of the Calcutta trilogy (Pratidwandi, Seemabaddha and Jana Aranya) that i understood the concept of the trilogy clearly and liked it. I don't know why people still compare Mrinal Sen's Calcutta trilogy (Interview, Calcutta 71, Padatik) with that of Ray's, because both of them had different outlook and approach towards film making and they both, according to me, have done justice to their respective films. The same can be said about both of their endeavors towards the subject of Calcutta famine..Sen's Akaler Sandhane and Ray's Ashani Sanket .

EK DIN ACHANAK (Dir : Mrinal Sen)

Ah! Finally got to watch the one flick i had been waiting endlessly for years..and how i loved it! A perfect women centric flick in all aspect featuring my most admirable actors together..Aparna Sen, Shabana Azmi, Roopa Ganguly and of course, a commendable supporting act by Uttara Baokar (well deserved National award 1989 for Best Supporting actress), supported competently by Shreeram Lagoo, Anil Chatterjee, Arjun Chakraborty..The film excellently captures the vagaries of life in a typical middle-class bengali household facing quietly and morosely a dilemma,after the mysterious disappearance of its patriarch! Shabana Azmi's character reminded me so much of Meghe dhaka Tara's Neeta ,while at times it might remind you of Shabana Azmi's yet another role in a much recent  flick 15 Park Avenue..Aparna Sen shines through the role of a student who's deep and poignant relationship with her professor is left unsolved while Roopa Ganguly enacts her part as the younger sibling efficiently

Mrinal Sen is well known for bringing out the pathos of the middle class household as we have witnessed in some of his major works like Akash kusum, Kharij, Ek din pratidin, and this one too categorizes as one of the must watch films of Indian cinema showcasing the 70's and 80's of the middle class efficiently!

P.S. : I wonder who did the dubbing for Aparna Sen in the film..the voice over seems so much familiar!

My heart still goes out for Jack..!!

Oh boy! I can't even get a man to open a door for me! Let alone, give me the door to float on while he freezes to death !! (Crap! here goes my romantic instincts again!)

(De Caprio looked so much sexier with his boyish charm appeal instead of his recent urbane GANGS OF NEW YORK look!)

15 years later, i ve had my first big screen TITANIC experience today..bigger and better with the 3D version! Why it is still hated by some critics, I will never know..Cliched love story might be, but nonetheless, it still remains my utmost romantic flick (few more tissues for me please!)..particular scenes ceases to fade out of my memory like..

*For the last time Rose tells the already dead Jack "Ill never let go" followed by a kiss on his hands, then she lets him go,and he slowly sinks into the 'Heart of the ocean'..

*The rather old and fragile Rose tells her listeners, 'I don't even have a picture of him; he exists now, only in my memory…' A simple, yet beautiful and poignant moment, one that we can all relate with,especially for those amongst us who particularly cherish their memories, whatever they might be..

*The scene where a mother reads a story for her children while the ship sinks haunts me forever...and oh yes! James Horner's hauntingly beautiful score..

Have'nt we watched this one bfo? Oh yes! countless times! So what makes this one special? The first time i watched it was through poor quality VCR player,later with the advent of prime time television and DVDs ,the picture became much more clearer! and now bigger and better with the 3D version!!

Class Apart..!!

The Kohl streaked smoky eyes with added lashes and a touch of mascara to heighten the alluring look,perfectly well defined lips, and pastel shaded chiffons to give her that enigmatic look on screen!!

'Ugly Duckling turning into a beautiful Swan'...Ok we have heard that before! (read Rekha!!) but then what really goes into a complete makeover, and that too gracefully,without going under the knife or double dose of botox is simply evident in our 'Kadsburry'...Kajol..From a lean, dark, grotesque teen in Baazigar, with some thunder thighs to acknowledge her beauty in Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge ( recall 'mere khwabo mein jo aaye' song..white skirt!! who recommended that skirt for her? Manish?? ;/ ;/ ), circulating the award ceremonies with her plain jain,oil coated hair,and double sized glasses.. she metamorphosed into a charming delight post KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI....and all thanks to her mentors Manish Malhotra, Mickey Contractor, Gautam Rajadhyaksha and a certain friend called Karan Johar...She stands apart from the rest of the crowd..undoubtedly!!

Its just about You.....!! (Part 1)

Seldom (or may i say,in most of the cases) people are not clear about their priorities, what do they actually seek or are looking for in a relationship..I know some people who end up being 'in a relationship' just for the sake of it or just to show off themselves in front of their peers by flaunting their boyfriends/girlfriends..Its being 'in vogue' they say....
The biggest mistake we do is in selecting the right person,and we realize it when its already too late,so when problem starts erupting,we try our best to salvage the situation either by compromising with our inner thoughts or just erasing out the problem from our mind!

You were never meant for any relationship coz ur priorities were pre fixed somewhere else (and i do respect religious sentiments) and u knew it very well..but, u thought i didn't knew..yes! i came to know about it few months later after we came back from kolkata in 2010 (someone close to u had told me the same),and since then,i had known that we..together...US...is totally doomed!!

You have lived a life entirely based on ur religious thoughts,sentiments,ur believe in that 'holy one',which is very rare in today's time, i have always respected you for that, but then...leaving behind your hometown when u hailed to a land full of oppurtunities (did i say guys here?),somewhere down the line u got soaked with the razzmataz of the city's lifestyle...specially with the dating scenario,so u tried to explore that side of yours,being on a dating site,meeting people,going on dates,night outs,sexual escapades etc.. etc.. Now u have a serious problem,u trust people blindly! specially with the ones you are physically attracted to, or u are obsessed with,and so u ended up being with people who have just played with ur trust,ur feelings,taking u up just as a sex tool or someone to vent out their pass times (hell! even for money!)....We need friends in our life,luckily for u, u are blessed with some incredibly wonderful friends in your life (don't lose them),but then there came a point in your life when u were devoid of any friends,so u wanted to get hooked up with every single person (again,physical attraction surfaces!) that came ur way...and I WAS SIMPLY...ONE OF THEM!!